And that's what they don't see.

There's a reason behind everything.

I spontaneously broke down after rediscovering my old conversation with iDz when I was searching for my Thermodynamics lecture notes. Yeaaaah, the notes were all over the folder since the first lecturer uses the word "chapter" for the start for his notes, and the other lecturer uses "week" instead. So the notes were quite jumbled up and stuff.

And I found our old Whatsapp conversations. It was nothing really, but what broke me was how he was so sweet and never once he did not care when he realized that there's something wrong with me. And the very line that got me paralyzed was, when I said that he deserves somebody better, he said

"Yaya don't say that. Never say that."

And that was it. The rest that happened after that included me getting emotionally uncontrollable, hating him and got all pissed and feeling the pain and idk why, the small hope is fighting its way to the surface. The last one was hilarious, tho.

After pleading to Him to ease this pain and grant me the strength to tank through this, an unexpected thing happened.

My little sister, my sweet but under an anger management program but sweet nonetheless, she asked me to tune in to Lite.fm. I did and it was Jamie Scott's Unbreakable, the song that I mentioned here, was playing. And somehow, it helped me.

The Almighty One up there, He is Merciful. How He channeled the strength that I needed in the most unthinkable way there was, will always be beyond our imagination and knowledge.