Left at home.

I think I laughed a lot while talking to him this evening.

Funny. He called before he boarded his flight last night and we talked for a good forty minutes. So here's the thing. Actually, we are currently committing ourselves in a long distance relationship. Well, Cheras and Subang Jaya aren't THAT far, honestly. But we rarely see each other during the holidays. In fact, it was only twice in the last three months.

Because we are weird like that.

But that's not the main point here. So, we rarely see each other and let this distance constantly be between us. Therefore, it should not bother me for him to be in another country, for him to be extra four thousand kilometers from me, isn't it?

What's funny is, when I know I can't see him for this coming days even IF he's in his hometown, I still felt this  lost feeling when he disconnected from the call, just before he boarded his flight. It was as I can actually feel he's going slowly away from me.

This sucks. I wish I can just see him everyday, y'know? But that would lead to, according to him "eventual boredom and saturation". But then again, how would anybody get bored with a fascinating being, like him? He's so thick with layers and layers of stories and feelings and mesmerizing ideas, waiting to be peeled one by one.

On a separate note, I drove my parent's bigass Estima to send my brother to his driving class. And yes, I can't stop being a paranoid Nadiah,  because this would be the first time I drove a super massive car. I basically live on (okay, not literally tho but still) my friend's Kancil, and my driving academy's Kancil and Viva. Which were a bunch of compact and small cars, for Merlin's sake!

And my brother got super manja (which is rare because he puts on his poker face like, 24/7 so this indicates that he wants a favor from me) and ask me to fetch him. He also wanted me to drove to our grandmother's house which is about ten minutes away. I, honestly, am still not confident of driving that van but I agreed because I'm gonna feel so guilty if I turned down his favor. So we'll see then if my sad slash afraid face could cancel this plan. Sigh.

I wish I am more confident driving a large vehicle.

And maybe I can convince my parents to let me bring it to Tronoh and go for a day out with my eight girls for a girls day out in a VAN. Can you imagine how havoc it is going to be if that happened? And maybe drive him and let him see how I drive that instead of just listening via Viber. And..

Okay my imagination and dreams are becoming too impossible. They'll never let me bring that ten-year-old-but-still-functioning-exceptionally-well Estima to my campus. Hihi :)

Good night. Assalamualaikum.