Worth it.

 

Stumbled upon this song and after a while, I knew it was something that I kinda need to hear. Soothes me, made me realize about one thing and going to be my lullaby for the night.

I've never thought I'm going to like any of his song better than I'm Yours. Gosh, I was so obsessed with that song during my third year in high school. When I got my first mp3 after PMR, it was one of the first song I transferred from the computer and one of the most listened song in my rested in peace, blue YP-U3.

I wish I still have it. My first personal, one and only mp3 player. Does anyone know where can I get the blue one? I'll pay for it if anybody can get me that, I promise. That and I'll never bug anybody, especially my mum, about getting an iPod Nano. Sigh.

Good night, sleep well people. And for you, my annoying, super crazy, but sweet and handsome and my one and only Danial, I love you, moron. Don't ever fucking forget that.

:)

Don't know who I'm kidding.

Miserable, miserable week.

I'll have to apologize for my bitching out post previously but you know, a volatile person like me can't really help it when the mind exploded.

But the past week? Was freakishly exhausting. Like really, really, REALLY exhausting, physically and mentally. With three days of not-less-than-6-hours-straight, and Computational Methods quiz (it was just a fucking quiz, dammit. Haih.), and the unexpected boredom in the much anticipated Recreational and Activity I class which I thought would as similar to those classes I had during my National Service time (minus the outdoor activities, of course), not to mention some hideous personal problems, I pretty much became a zombie by the end of Wednesday.

And I exploded on Thursday.

Another apology to my very awesome girlfriends, who had to witness my breakdown. I is sorry I brought everybody down and mentally scarred at least one of you with my unresponsiveness. That dinner was fabulous, I appreciate that.

And yesterday? Whoa. A bomb was dropped and I can't help feeling left out, AGAIN. That's twice now. Tried to be happier but I guess I'm too selfish to do that, considering the days I had to go through and the state I am after doing that. The perfect news to end a flippin' torturous week. Like the cherry on top of the perfect icing on a cake.

Dramatic much.

Another set of apology and loads "thank you"s to my bestest of friend to bother you with my, well, you know, my outbursts. Thanks for being there when I needed a friend, or generally, a fucking human being, to talk to. Really.

Should have followed his advice, but I have absolutely no guts to do that. Sorry bro. Thanks anyway.

Anyhoo, it was a while ago when I found this photo editing app from the AppsGoneFree thingy on my iPhone and I decided to download it and y'know, like, give it a try when I feel like it. The week before this destructive one, I snapped a picture of a pretty-looking view in front of my block and was tempted to edit it in the iColorama S. And turned out, it was freaking awesome cool weh.

The original one.

Edit #1 and #2.

#3 and #4.

#5.

Clickity clack for a bigger view. Showed them to a couple of my friends and Dani too. From what I could tell, most of them loveeee #4 and #5. But I was all crazy over #3 tho. The sooooooftness is soooooooo comforting although the colors seems a bit too bright. Lulz.

And by last Sunday, I used 5 of my Instax film wiwiwiwiwiwiw.

And it has been, like, what, 4 hours since I started this post. Procrastinate much? Lulz, maybe I need some distraction. Hew hew. Well, enjoy what's left of today people! And enjoy the Sunday too!

Before Monday comes and ruin your rest. Hashtag eh.

Hihi, until then, bye!

P/s : Guess what?

Wrong combination of the current burning heart and movie. Definitely no good.

Tick me off with unrelated, better-than-me fact and I'll be no more the cheery person you once know. As simple as that. I. Am. Volatile. Everybody knows that. Sorry for being originally combustible so fucking easily. Maybe the person with the most number of special outing could be a bit more patient, more mature, less the size of the green monster inside of me? Or maybe the supermodel one?

Haha.

Haram satu kerja pun tak boleh nak jalan. Bikin aku nak mencarut. Esok kena bangun awal. Bukan boleh pun nak tidur awal ni. Lagi buat aku mencarut. Baguslah sikit-sikit nak meletup. Mari nak tepuk belakang sendiri.

Haih. Sometimes I wish I could run away from all this. What I feel doesn't matter anyways. Hew hew.

Whatever. sorry.

Pretty baby with the high heels on.

Please blame my best friend who made me go to my Michael Jackson's folder when he asked for some MJ's songs recommendation . And now I couldn't stop playing his iconic songs.

Which "iconic songs" you might ask? Most of em, really.

Haih.

And now I am tempted to add those songs into my iPhone which now have dangerously low memory. I'm sure I need to clear some of my pictures and some of the apps too. But after I recognized myself as a hoarder? HAHAHA dream on, Yaya. You ain't gonna delete anything.

Hoarder shmorder. Haih.

On the other hand, I have a great evening with my girls just now. TEC had this thing called Santai Petang organized at the Oval Park, and we decided to have a walk and have fun enjoying each others' presence because let's face it, Ninie will never let a moment pass without any of her ludicrous comments :3 Too bad it wasn't nine of us having fun together.

Just when we arrived, the girls decided that we'll have to act like some elegant, civilized (or as Marsha put it, bertamadun) ladies. But, uhuh. Elegant la sangat kan? Ended up we laughed like cray-cray people a lot. Plus, some exaggerated elegant acts. Nevertheless, we had a great time, especially while kayaking. Yes, kayaking okay? Amy and I make a great and efficient team yo! We went fast and my arms do not hurt at all! Wohoo :3 Haha, c'mon. It's been a while since I last kayaked. Which was during my form five's English camp, with my best friend back then. Dah la the instructor decided to mount our kayak and we had to paddle with extra weight that day. And the guys went all "wooo Yaya muscle weey!"

What the.

And I brought Baby Panda along to the lake! Together with Al's instax too! Hihi. Since I am so very new to this, I summoned all my courage and experimented with the settings. Together with Al's encouragement, I took two pictures with it , using different settings, during different situation and from those and I now know how to use Baby Panda more. Idk if I am being too stingy nose's shit with the usage of the films tho. But I bought forty films together with Baby Panda, so more experimenting maybe?

As I quote my him,

"..if you enjoy the money you spend, it's not money wasted no matter on how stupid the thing is."

Orang pro cakap, boleh ah. Ini orang amatur. Hashtag EH.

One step at a time. Starting with some baby steps. Besides, better late than never, kan? I can always go to Ayah to talk about this. He loves his old I-can't-remember-what-brand-it-was-but-I'm-pretty-sure-it's-Olympus camera oh. Not that it's the same with my Baby Panda, but help is still help. Wiwiwiwiw.

Okay, and the cicak on the other side of my window looks super creepy. Looks like it's munching or something like that. But hey, I should be grateful to the cicaks here oh. The other day, one of em eat this crazy annoying bug that buzzed around my room.

Okay that was random. So now, I think I'm gonna find out more about how to use Baby Panda better while whatsapping until I is sleepy. Till then, bye! :)


P/s: Is there any relationship between body weight and kayaking? Aku yang certified overweight ni, relax je. Boleh belah je kayuh. Rasanya strong arms lagi penting kot. Baru seronok nak mendayung, tak gitu?

Evidence.

So, I've been waiting since yesterday to head to UTP's mailing room. Why? Because GDex e-tracking stated that my parcel has been safely delivered. My attempt of buying stuff online and guess what I decided to buuuuuy?

Say hi to my newest baby.

And it actually goes very well with Mister Panda. But I can't actually sleep with it, just like I sleep with Mister Panda, can I? HAHA no. Baby Panda (that's what I'm calling it until I get a new name) will have to sit on the shelve, okay little baby?

#6 is off my wishlist. *air punch*

Oh, this week's hair theme? *badumtss* Princess Fiona's complexion.


And I'm pissed off. Haha. Funny, isn't it? Maybe I need to care less, dream less, and expect less. I sometimes hope for something to be noticed, because I see more than just words sometimes. But yeah. Yaya's a fucked up person. Couldn't even explain herself. Lulz, why bother doe? Idk.

Care less, Yaya. Care the fucking less.

And to my littlest brother and littlest sister, get ready for the last semester before your big, big exam! Work smart, study hard. You are already surrounded by brilliant people. Be with them. Stay on top :) And I love you guys.

As for Alis, tunggu masuk GMI ah ye. Then only I can give lectures to you. HAHA.

Kbai.

But baby it's cold outside.

Hugging Mister Panda and letting him sit on my shoulder.

Blissful.

It is Sunday, people! I should be lounging on my bed, reading whatever novel I have with me at the moment and read, let my mind wander and imagine and soar until I fall asleep. But honestly? Catching Fire wouldn't be the perfect relaxing reading material for this kind of laid-back ambiance and let's face it, I finished that book for God knows how many times for the last seven days.

I wish I brought along my unfinished Thanks For the Memories. Sobs.

Anywaaaay, I have received my hair chalks and with some encouragement from my girlfriends, I tried experimenting with the colors and Guess what? I chalked my hair purple last Thursday! Now, I can safely cross the #2 on my crazy sort-of wishlist! :3 Gonna blame my Dani for starting to make me super obsessed with this color.

Which reminds me, I'm gonna add two new items to that list:

          #5 - Watch a New York Yankees' match live.
          #6 - Own a Fujifilm's Instax Mini Panda.

Soooo. I realized I have not blogged since my first day here, so let's update some things yeah?

I celebrated my birthday the day after I arrived here. It was awesome, I'd say. On midnight, three calls were struggling to get through, and those were from three (four) most important person in my life. Thank you Ayah, Ibu, Danial and Shah for the queuing calls!

Ibu and Ayah bought a surprise cake slice when we lunched at Secret Recipe earlier that day. It was so sweet and I went all awwwwwww when they did that. And last weekend, when I went back home to be with my siblings for a while, again, they bought a blueberry cheese cake for me and Adan. This time, a whole cake  *cue muka lapar*

Danial, on the other hand, decided it's cool to drag me to the cafe that very midnight and surprise me with some gifts, including a cute little stuffed panda whom we called 'Mister Panda'. FEKs, love!

One of my girlfriend, Amy, decided to drop by my house that evening and surprise me with a slice of cake too and a totally cute gift, a clutch purse! It was sweet of her :') Thank you!

And the best thing about that day was, when I was chilling at Amy's room that night and all of my eight girlfriends decided to join us and shout their birthday wishes upon entering the room.

I could conclude that having nine girls in a room that was intended for two, is not a very great idea, although 'twas a fun and noisy reunion after the four-months break :3

And the overwhelming wishes. Thank you all! I appreciate every single one of them, I really do.

It was a great day.

I've started my third semester as a Chemical Engineering student with my fellow #ChemeClan the next day. Could you believe that week three is starting tomorrow? Dang, time flies so effing fast! The classes were very interesting, some of them even made me curious and more eager to learn those new stuff and I hope (desperately) that I can maintain this momentum until the expected finals in September. Couldn't afford to flunk any subjects, right?

And during the day out with my girlfriends last Friday, I reached a new milestone in my life. I, finally, got myself a first pair of...  *drumroll*  *dramatic whisper* Converse. A purple All Star. Yes, I know. Purple. Please refer to the caption of the above picture about this color. So, the next time I'm having a day out with my girls, I'll never wear my wedges, which made my leg sore UNTIL NOW EVEN and wear sneakers. Honestly, I am so delighted about my haul, I'm gonna brag about it to my sister. She's one helluva kid who wanted a pair of Converse so badly since I don't know when. I couldn't possibly buy her one now, without her with me.

But hey, if we go out together one day, I'm gonna buy you one, okay kiddo? Kisses.

Been delaying to post this entry for a quite while now. But I think I'll have to get away from my computer now. Raging headaches and my need to study aren't exactly a great combo. And by adding internet to the equation? Not a good thing. But a girl gotta do what a girl gotta do. Let's sleep. Hashtag EH. Study, I mean :3

Till then, bye!