10 day letter challenge: Day 6

What is it? Who are you, what do you want? *Edna Mode voice*

Haha kidding!

I'm sorry, last week was kinda hectic. And no, the weekend were worse than the weekdays. Or maybe I was too lazy to type? Or maybe writers' block?

Hah, acah-acah writer.

Anyhoo, I'm back and hopefully, I can finish this within this week woohoo! Leggo!

day 6. write a letter to your best friend

Hi.

Lately, I don't have any best friend. It's not just lately, it's long before that. I don't really care about what was really happening around me. Maybe because of the examination week? Or maybe because I stopped opening myself up to the people around me? I'd say a bit of both, really. I was too busy to catch up with my friends and I started to keep things to myself. Not a very friendly combo, I might say.

It's a simple thing, really. I used to care about those who I considered close to me. I love to visit them, virtually and realistically. I love to be able to be a listener and giving back advice in return, if they need any. I usually find people when they need help. I never knew "being helpful' is in my gene, but generally, I love seeing them, the people I love, happy.

But then again, I'm just a human. I need somebody to listen to me, too.

So it's hard to actually dedicate this to somebody specific, but , this letter is for you, the one(s) who stayed by my side during my recent downfall and the ones even before the holidays or even the ones before that.

All I want to say is thank you. Thank you for everything. Thank you for those helpful advice, awesome motivational talk. Thank you for being a shoulder when I need one to cry on, or even to hold on to for a while. Thank you for bearing with my smile, my tears, my maniacal laughter, my sobbing mess, my hugs I gave out when you needed them, my ridiculous ideas, my crazy self, my quirky ugly-face-pulling thing, my idiocy, my shyness, my multi-fandom (which I have no idea how large it actually is) addiction, my mood swing,

I realized, I'm not an easy person to be with. One moment I'm this happy-go-lucky girl who don't give a fuck about anybody else, then I changed into this hatred-fueled demon within seconds. For that, I could never thank you properly enough for sticking with me, no matter how long.

It's funny; most of the people initially took me as an arrogant, perfectionist bitch who didn't talk much. That was what most of my best friends, my friends told me when I ask you people. And now look how far we've gone since then, eh?

Thank you. Thank you for everything. No definite amount of thank you will be sufficient to return your kindness and all those priceless experience we've been through together. I will try to return every favor you've ever did for me, but until then? Thank you and I hoped we stick together until forever!

Warm hugs,
Yaya :)

10 day letter challenge: Day 5

day 5. write a letter to your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush 

and p/s: Blogger is being an asshole for not showing recent blogposts from the blogs I'm following on my dash. I have no freaking idea why.

and p/p/s: This post is going to be wild :3

Hi Darren Criss.

Yes, I'm writing a letter to you.

Yes, of course you didn't realize I've had a pretty big crush on you since season 2. Like, holy shucks, Teenage Dream that you sang was as perfect as hell!

Then I decided to sneak around a little bit more, and I discovered you actually had an EP with the title "Human". Fuck, it was pure eargasmic experience for me. I've always loved the Not Alone track; reminds me how whatever happens, I'm not alone. The angst in Jealousy? Whoa, so like whoa. And Human is somewhat quirky and funny and realistic in some way.

And then I discovered Team Starkid, and well, it didn't went well for me. I downloaded the whole A Very Potter Musical show AND the soundtrack album, the A Very Potter Prequel soundtrack album, A Very Starkid album and the Holy Musical B@tman! soundtrack album too.

Also, I downloaded Jim and The Povolos' The Holiday Club EP because hey, Joe Walker is hot too.

WHAT?! 'm just saying. Team Starkid really have some beautiful men and women in it.

I've never stopped keeping track of your glee covers. Your version of Young the Giant's Cough Syrup, Christina Aguilera's Fighter, Imagine Dragons' It's Time will be on the my top favorite songs from you. And your Klaine duets? A fricking delicious.

For almost a year. ALMOST A YEAR, I cared about you. I sang to your songs. Asked my friends to listen to your songs. Watched you in every Glee episode you were in. Waited for you to be on screen. Cooed and awwed at your sickly sweet scene with Chris. Almost fainted when you sang my favorite song from the movie Top Gun. And what did I get back?

Nothing. No-freaking-thing. All that attention, time I gave away for you, gone without any reply. It sucks. It was then I realized, you'll never notice me, not with one very beautiful, multi-talented, sweet Mia Swiers in your arms.

And then, I decided it was best for both of us for me to stop obsessing over you.

I'm sorry, we were not meant to be for each other.

Be happy with your life, brutha. And never, ever, regret for not noticing the crush I had for you.

Sincerely,
Nad.

10 day letter challenge: Day 4

day 4. write a letter to your siblings

It's funny how day four of this letter challenge falls on my little sister's birthday. And I was just about to throw a fit about I can't choose to which sibling of mine I'm going to write this letter to, I saw the letter s behind the word sibling.

Phew.

So. Hi you guys. My name is Nadiah and I'm the oldest among you peasants, so listen up.

Having little brothers and sister is a good thing. Which means, I can boss you around, ask you people to do stuff, ask for yer help, be a motivator for you guys. But being the eldest has its drawbacks too; having to give in during any of the argument, y'know those kind of "yelah, mengalah je la kakak" stuff.

Hideous. But I surely love them to death, anyway.

Um, apa lagi? Let's get this over with, yeah?

My big, sweet genius brother. We both know how hard  it actually is to obey the rules and regulations. We disagreed with them, we rebelled, we even proved them wrong. You taught me to be confident of myself, helped me to and even went and be my co-pilot during the last four months holidays. Somehow, I see us as two mischief, secretive kids. Bro, I need to tell you one thing. Under that macho mask you always put on, I know that you love me :3 But seriously, thank you for pushing me to be brave, especially while driving.

My very own van Persie, my twin little brother. Who decided to become my third birthday's present. Yeah you read it right; my mother gave me one adorable brother as a birthday present. Kau hado? Haha, it's awesome how they always said, "Haa, kembar. Baguslah, perangai pun sebijik," when we ourselves know that is true, but we also know that we are so fucking different. Especially gender-wise. But hey, now that I'm having my four-months break with you, most of my time were spent laughing, memorizing the notable Maharaja Lawak Mega's and Karoot Komedia's quotes, so yeah. You lightened up my life with your jokes.

Eh tak kelakar ah.

K.

My only sister, my secret keeper, my gossip partner, my beautiful crazy best friend, who apparently cried while watching the "Do You Want To Build A Snowman" scene because it reminded he of me. And she is the reason why I became so obsessed with Disney's Frozen, apart from the fact Idina Menzel and JGroff was in the movie too. I honestly don't regret seeing that movie with you, than seeing it earlier. Watching it with you that night, somehow, made me realize, I know that you'll have me and my back, no matter what. And although you are my little Anna, I wouldn't shut you out. Not ever, I promise.

My important three people to be added with the recipient of my last letter. I love you guys, yes, eternally.

Love,
Your annoying, crazy batshit sister MWAH.

10 day letter challenge: Day 3

day 3. write a letter to your parents

(oookay, this is going to be so much fun)

Hi Ayah! Hi Ibu!

Well, it's me here. (you don't say) Anyway, hi. Again.

Well, in case you are wondering what am I doing in my room tonight, well, you are reading it now. Hahaha. Haha.

Ha.

I hate awkward-me.

Okay here goes. They say, mother knows best. But I disagree, simply because I think that both of my parents know what's the best for us. Even before I think of something, you guys came to me, bearing loads of advice I'd never knew I need later in life.

Sometimes, I would be so amazed and I wonder, "how on Earth they would know something like this will happen?". Perhaps I have a That's-So-Raven parents? Or probably they have this latent powers that would be more powerful if and only if they turned into a pair of vampires? Or maybe, just maaaybe, they mastered the art of Divination?

Now, I'm imagining Ayah, sitting in Trelawney's class with his eyebrows furrows while concentrating on a crystal ball. And I shall not rolling on the floor, laughing. I shall not. Oh God.

But then I remembered, they are my parents. The two person who watched me as I grew from the size of a pillow until this young woman I am now, who would be by my side before I myself know that I am falling, who would make me see and observe what is happening around me and asked me to think whether they are being right or wrong, who knew my fears and whatever that disgusts me (that stupid trypophobia thing, anyone?). And here I am, questioning their superpowers. Haha, who am I kidding, really?

My point is, I had never really properly thank both of you for making me see the world with two (or even possibly, more) different perspective. And also for giving such badass and super effective advice, examples, everything. Thank you. So much.

It's not really a secret that I disappoint both of you several times, but I promise you, I am working on being a better person, to be a better daughter than I was before; academically, spiritually, emotionally. Thank you for being the coolest parents ever.

But most importantly? Thank you being my best-ever friends. I love you both so much, eternally.
Hugs and kisses,
Your crazy, ridiculous-face-puller AND loving daughter hihi <3

10 day letter challenge: Day 2

day 2. write a letter to your your future self

Hell-oh,

I just hope that whatever we (as in me-now and you-future) planned came true.

And we finally visited New York for the second or even third time.

And we owned a walk-in closet and filled with all kind of dresses, Hard Rock Cafe tees, sturdy handbags, Converses with all imaginable colors that exist. And always remember, wedges > anything else! Except for Converse.

Vanity table filled with minimal-styled bracelets, studs, earrings, necklaces; both high-end jewelries and the cheap, beautiful ones.

The rustic-themed home. And modern kitchen. They do work, trust me.

The dream job. Or something like that. Or near to that. Or an engineer. Whatever.

But most of all, whatever you do, DO NOT give up on being a Potterhead.

Basically, don't give anything (or anyone, really) that you love up.

I'll be seeing you soon, God-willing. Ameen.

Love,
Present-me (also past-you. Or is it future past-you? Wth, whichever la.)

10 day letter challenge: Day 1

day 1. write a letter to your past self.

Dear younger self,

You know, you've just wasted a good thirty minutes, trying to repair some HTML codes for your blog's blockquote that you ruined two years ago for trying to be fancy as fuck? I can't believe that I was once an elaborate young girl, because now, believe it or not, I am a minimalist. From a fancy, decorative, particular person to a minimal, simple kind of person.

And that's not even the biggest change you've encountered, trust me.

If somehow this letter ended up in a time machine and got sent back to you, no matter when, don't worry. I won't be like that spoiler person who ended up telling all about the movie content. Just a bit here and there, some things that I am sure will make your life happier.

FIRST, I don't recommend you to fall for a person who is somebody else's, no matter when you are sixteen or nineteen. Just don't.

And please, for the love of God Almighty, listen to what Ibu said about that guy you were convinced you were in love with when you are seventeen. He is not worth your time.

Talking about National Service, DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT fall for the guy you will meet in the KN class. He is as complicated as fuck and you would regret having to waste your money texting him, time spent liking him.
Generally, don't fall for guys easily. You have this tendency to like people who seems to care about you a bit more than normal people does. It's either they are just being nice or they are trying to toy with you. With that, you may find somebody who will care about you thoroughly, cherish your achievements and your advantages, but he will also accept your flaws; the permanent ones and the temporary ones.

To be honest, up until this point, I have no idea if you will meet this special man who will take care of you for the rest of your life. They say, when you love someone, you will accept him as a whole, be patient with him and his ways, change his life for the better. I can't say the journey will be easy, but it'll be worth the time and feelings you've invested.

Appreciate people around you. The ones who bothered to let you into their lives. Appreciate their effort, no matter how small it is, or how grand it is. Compliment them. Care about their lives, because they cared about yours. Be happy for them, even if you hurt yourself in the process. Be glad. Be an optimist. Search for the good outcomes and aim for them. There'll be thorns and stuff, but the destination will be sweet, so sweet that you'll forget all the pain and sufferings you encountered.

Don't be too dependent; you are a strong lady. Even if your closest of friends ignore you, man up. Harden that heart, build that "I don't give a damn" attitude and continue to live your life with that as your shield. You can do it.

I don't remember when, but please don't stop wearing that armor.

Be an open-minded person, that kind of person who'll assess every single option available; not just the good ones, but the bad ones too.We could never know if the worst, heart-breaking option will bring the best out of yourself, isn't it? So, be brave. Take the risk but at the same time, be smart about your decision.

Oh, and remember how you cried the day you got your MJSC offer letter? I wish you hadn't. You should know how the next five years of your life was one of the best phase in your life. That was what you want, wasn't it? Don't cry. I know, random. But that's something you should be happy about :)

Another thing, your anger? Don't let it bottled up in yourself. Fucking destructive. Tak tipu.

And a reminder, when Adan ask you to accompany him to watch a Manchester United game on the early 20th January morning, don't agree. MU sucked, big fricking time. And you are going to regret having to watch your favorite team lose, seriously.

And um, go play the Spider Solitaire in your laptop. The fireworks at the end in a hundred million thousand times better then the ones in the old computer. GO!

Until we meet again, go enjoy yourself. Bye :)

Love,
Your present self.

10 day letter challenge: Day 0

A big wave and congratulations for my #ChemeClan mak, mrnzmi (for making my blog less enigmatic, and this is where I give you the deadly Yaya-glare) and my babe ameeranadya for finding my blog here! I'll keep my promise to be more active here, despite this is my first post after the holiday started almost a week ago.

Random intro, but the acknowledgement was in order. And welcome, whoever you are who might stumbled upon this shabby blog accidentally or intentionally. Welcome, welcome, and may the odds be ever in your favor.

Hashtag EH.

It's the second four-months break and this blog is nearing its first anniversary. Wehaay, who knew this blog is still functioning and still being written on after all those two hectic semesters eh? It's not a big surprise I write more on my personal tumblr since I started this blog but I promised myself two or three weeks ago that I will write more here and leave my tumblr to let it rest for a while.

I do have a to-do list this holidays, which includes iPhoneography-and-Instagramming, blog-updating, baking and building my cooking skills. With God's willing, I will complete all of them by the time the next semester starts.

To ensure I keep updating my blog, I browsed my tumblr's dashboard and found this daily challenge thing from heckyeahtumblrchallenges.tumblr.com. To think that I'm not a person who can think of and write about something new and different every single day, so I think that the challenges from the tumblr might help me to vary my writing idea.

Not that I'm writing anything informative here, but whatevers yeah? :3

So I choose this "10 day letter challenge" where I have to write different letters to different recipients as follows:

day 1. write a letter to your past self.
day 2. write a letter to your your future self
day 3. write a letter to your parents
day 4. write a letter to your siblings
day 5. write a letter to your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
day 6. write a letter to your best friend
day 7. write a letter to a stranger
day 8. write a letter to someone you’ve been thinking about lately
day 9. write a letter to someone that changed your life
day 10. write a letter to yourself

Let's get going! :)